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Tiredness
There's so much things going through my mind and it really makes me tired.
I suppose in chinese, you can use 身心疲倦 to describe however I feel right now. There's really no better phrase than this. So how do I end up where I am, what I am doing and what leads to this dreadful stagnant phase in my life. It's really my fault.
Fearful + Careful = ULTIMATE failure
No doubt in the eras back then, the mentality of most if not all traditional Asian will have this notion : 小心驶得万年传 imprinted in their mind. Before every major decision, lots of time will be spend on evaluating whether it's a wise move or not. Sometimes people live life as though it's a game of chess. Each move are done only upon a long analyse. No doubt it is good to think twice before making decision but often, the original intent is lost after a long period of contemplation.
However, I'm born in the modern society. I'm suppose to be the Generation Y (or maybe Generation X since I'm really not that 'fresh and tender' as I am 4 years ago). Generation Y: the group of youth who is fearless and resilient. Apparently, neither of that apply to me, not at all.
I suppose I really need to been through a phase in life or some term it as 'wasted year(s)' before picking up the courage to do whatever I should try to be doing. After all, no one is born to be a real professional in whatever they do, it's only through learning that one can attains the title.
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